I’ve found that on either side, (the heartbreaker v.s the heartbreakee) I have no idea how guys operate. It’s such a mystery to me that it’s frustrating. I genuinely believe that girls go through phases during which they’re not meant to have anyone and I think I’m going through this phase but I’ve been disguising it as being too busy. No. Even with TWO guys, the sense of dissatisfaction is heart-wrenching, not for their sake but for my internal sanity. For one I can’t talk to more than person so that aspect is stressing me out, and secondly, if I don’t like the person it won’t work. Part of me wants to just clock out and be like yeah no come back to me in a few when I’m done and ready to actually put forth the effort I didn’t put forth when I had a good one last time.
There is absolutely no understanding of boys in my mind right now. I’m so angry I don’t even know if I want to know.
IN REAL LIFE: